I love my solitude

There are times in my life I wished to myself that I was completely alone - only by myself and nobody else around me would be there. I wish...

I don't want any of my friends ,family,lover, workers and even my own socialite pseudo being to be there within me. I want complete silence....... A silence so pure that only my breath will become my guardian to my solitude. Is it just me or it is a phenomenon with people in general? Or is it my pseudo being which at times gets depressed and wants to run away from all the social wants and needs? There are too many expectations from a person in general- be it from my parents, my friends , my boyfriend, my relatives,my acquaintances and my employees- every body has got expectations from me and I have to live up to their expectations always??

Even I have got expectations from my own self! So it seems like I'm gonna lead the rest of the life fulfilling those expectations. Is that is why we are all here for??

Then again when I look from the other point of view I realize I expect people around me to behave in a certain way and I do have certain expectations from them! But even if they don't fulfill them I try not to get disappointed rather I try and lower my expectations.

Is it wrong to do so? Or does that make me a lesser being? For me I always believe in the goodness of the humankind . I have a undeniable faith in the people around me because I believe everybody has got some amount of purity left in them, which they just need to nurture . But circumstances are such that these basic goodness gets hidden under the day to day haggling and challenges. So for me to lose trust in somebody doesn't happen that quickly because I know I'm not Perfect.

Is it in the pursuit of Perfection that we are slowly loosing our sanity . Are we the ones who get drawn into the theory of 'grass is greener on the other side'? Is it because of this we are always looking for something better somewhere?

I always wondered about it and came to the conclusion that I'm also a part of the same human pschye? Or am I generalizing? Am I just alone out there?

That is why I rather be alone even away from my usual self where I don't have desires for myself . And in complete solitude I want to realize the reason for all these expectations.......

I love my solitude.............

P.S. - The above pic was part of our A/W 05/06 Collection . The black satin fitted shirt with completely no stitch line visible has been finished mostly by hand . The white georgette skirt with aari line embroidery and Cezc bead detailing has got a soft fall over a figure. The overall effect is that of complete innocence and that of a calm prevails in this out fit.

This specific photoshoot was done keeping in mind the overall attitude this garment emanated -we let the light become a character in itself by overexposing the picture to the light .... The message of completeness within one's own space.......

A marvellous potrayal of self satisfaction with thy self!!